Happy Halloween
I couldn't find my nurse costume
| Your Halloween Costume Should Be |
 Candy Corn |
Ever run out of ideas for pumpkin carving???
| You Are |
 An Evil Pumpkin Face
You would make a good pumpkin bomb. |
Dammit!
You Are Not Scary
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Everyone loves you. Isn't that sweet?
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I don't know what to say.....
Your Monster Profile
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Grim Goblin
You Feast On: Armadillos
You Lurk Around In: Las Vegas
You Especially Like to Torment: Republicans
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skool is tuff
I've been gone a while, but I'm now back in the realm of working REAL hours...when the sun is shining. I'm doing alright...keeping myself busy for the most part. Not really exciting, but there you have it. I haven't heard from my manager on any of the positions I had applied for...."I would really like to see your name in the applications Morgo" but watching everyone else get work is frustrating. I know something will come up, but
when is the big question. Did I do something to make it seem like I was uninterested in working for you???
Sigh. I guess I will just have to go back to waiting by the phone every minute of my life to hope for a call that will ask me to work when I happen to be available. Sometimes I hate working casual.
In other news, I started my OR training today. My hands hurt from scrubbing and my brain hurts from trying to remember everything. I got to play with instruments though. And how to put on sterile gloves inside out and backwards without using your hands....while remaining sterile. Talented am I. For years I had wanted to be in the OR. For years I wanted to take people apart and put them back together again...better and healthier than they were before. Why do I feel so nervous then??? Taking an OR course as a nurse is expensive, and lasts for weeks. I get 5 days. I hope I am ready.
The good news....I have 5 days on my next paycheck.
For the first time in a while though, I have homework. I suppose it is important to know the difference between hemostats, curved Mayos, Kochers, Bonnies, Metzenbaums, parkers, laheys, balfours, towel clips, and sponge forceps.......and all the others that I can't remember the names of.... Just doing it in one day will be the test.
I must go study.
Short and sweet
Sorry to all who had to endure my last post.....it has been a bad week, and the only outlet I had at the time was my blog. Thanks to your words of wisdom....you know I love you all.
Anywho, I am better. Now that things were said, and a trip to Lethbridge yesterday was done, things are better. Not as good as they can be, but certainly an improvement. I think my mom and I needed a 12 hour drive to get away from things. Too bad we had to come home.....we would have been half way to Vegas.
But we'll try and save that for another day....say February????
PS. Happy Birthday Mom! xoxoxo
And God bless Psycho
I went grocery shopping with JC and Mikayla after work yesterday. we bought a dinosaur costume for Halloween (it's a yellow triceratops) and amongst other things like 6 litres of ice cream I also bought some Pedigree denta stix for Bear. When we got home, Mikayla started putting away the dentastix in the pantry. JC goes, "no it's for a puppy" Mikayla looks confused. JC adds, "Do we have a puppy?" Mikayla shakes her head no. I say it's for Bear. JC asks "oh, Psycho?" Mikayla looks less confused. "Oh! Psycho!" She puts the Dentastix back in the bag. Later it's time for bed and once she's in her PJs and we tuck her in, we say her bedtime prayers. God Bless Papa, Papi, Nana, Baba, Uncle and Aunt, Xavier, Chloe... who else? Mikayla says "Puppy!" Whuh? which puppy? "Psycho" Oh. and God bless Psycho.
I also picked up new glasses. Yay new glasses. I don't look like an idiot and I don't look like a geek. That's good enough for me. And I don't have to wait for the transition lenses to go from dark to light.
It's a sale weekend. this means we have extended hours today. I'm too tired and I have a messy house. This means I might not be showing up for work....
Down and out
I think my worst habit is surfacing again.It's not procrastination....though I have had problems with that in the past... Sometimes I wish it were procrastination, though. I'd feel a whole lot better. No, I am talking about confidence. I am the worst person when it comes to self-confidence. I feel like I have none. Though I am feeling physically better since my last post, I have had an emotional downward spiral since then. I was comparing myself to others...bad thing to be doing, really, but whatever. I can admit that. I compared myself to everyone you could imagine....and then lost whatever confidence and esteem I had in myself. "Why couldn't I have *insert noun here* like so-and-so??" I dunno. I would ask myself over and over, and compare my life to theirs......stupid, I know. I'm being such a teenager. It's a vicious circle. The worse I feel, the more I compare. I felt so bad that I didn't want to do anything, go anywhere, see anybody. But I had to go to work. And being back to casual means I need every hour of work I can get. So I went. Good thing I did, cuz hope was found in a place I never expected. Feeling frustrated about my life, my day, and my abilities...I was standing at the desk when my clinical educator came up to me. She had a comment from one of the doctors about me, and wanted to pass on the message. Picking my stomach up off the floor and nervous about what disasterous comments were made, I put on a brave face. Turns out said doctor wanted to compliment me on the job I had done during a delivery a few days earlier. Who, me?? I couldn't believe what I was hearing. I almost wanted to cry, but instead I smiled. It felt good. That "warm and fuzzy feeling" you hear first year nursing students talk about....it's for real you know. I am healing. I am crawling out of the hole I made for myself....slowly....but still going. Dig up stupid! And now I have shared with you something pretty personal, something pretty sad, and maybe even something pretty boring. But this is my blog. And PRi's blog. When better things come....you will know
Oy, houses houses houses
With the housing market these days, I don't know what to think sometimes. JC's dad just bought a house and we were over there moving them in. I have mud all over my car and pants. Pants? eric, I let you touch my penis Haha, pants. Good ol Pants. Man, Imiss that lownj. Anyways, it's a beautiful house and I almost want a house like that. Wait a minute, isn't Shahzina selling her house? Hmm... maybe...
But that requires money. and if I'm going to keep on doing spontaneous things like jet off to Vegas for my birthday (!) I'm going to have to amend my dreams. Or start saving. Oy. is this a new leaf for PRi?
Anger to my stomach and Canadian Tire
I spent the entire day today doing nothing. I am so lazy, but I don't care. I knew I had been working hard (and working too hard) when my body finally shut down yesterday. I could barely finish my Sunday dinner, and felt terrible. My head felt like it was hit by a truck, and my back was sore. I couldn't even lie down cuz my poor stomach was so upset. Ow..my pancreas! I broke down and took some Pepto bismol...have you ever tried that stuff??? Blech. At least I didn't throw up. So I slept. And I slept. And I stayed in my pyjamas all day today and even slept through The Little Mermaid. Seems like sleep was the thing I needed most, though. I woke up this morning and felt a hundred times better. Needless to say, I didn't want to ruin the feeling, so I just didn't get dressed. Meh. Good thing, cuz today was definitely one you would want to just curl up under a blanket and read a good book or something.
I got up to let Bear outside and found the snow accumulating on my lawn and furniture. Alright so I know that it is Edmonton, and I know that it is fall, and I know that it is just a dusting of snow, and I know that there have been worse "winter" storms in Ontario and the US....but I still don't like it. Where did the warm weather go? OK, so it's a little unreasonable to ask for warm weather, but at least make the temperatures seasonal!
We used all our logs last weekend for our fireplace, so a trip to Costco for a large box of 3 hour logs was in store. But really...I'm in my pyjamas....and have no desire to even poke my head out the front door to see if the mail has come....do you really think I was going to Costco? Ha ha ha. Besides, mom and I have to go tomorrow to Canadian Tire to give them heck for not fixing my car......I had previously mentioned that my battery was replaced??? Turns out it wasn't the battery that was the problem...it's the alternator. I was a little suspicious that they told me my battery had drained (it's less than 2 years old)....but didn't bother finding out why my battery had drained so quickly. I had not been leaving lights on or anything...and I have been having problems with my electrical connections. What time is it? I dunno, my car starter worked but the digital clock is off.
And now I am off.....to curl up under a warm blanket...with a hot cup of tea......and watch the Oiler's game.....and perhaps read The Divinci Code during the intermission.
bright light city
Feelin a bit unappreciated today. Don't know why...just one of those days I guess. Got yelled at by my charge nurse. Everyone got yelled at today by my charge nurse. I can't wait until her position is done....she is a much better person when not in charge. Got told by a senior nurse that a decision I made today was pretty lame. Due to what I thought would have been unsafe practice, I delayed augmenting my patient's labour...though the delay wasn't necessary. It's my butt on the line, here. I must be "accountable" or whatever my nursing practice standard guidelines say I should be. I worked said butt off today and got nothing. At least it is payday. Half of my paycheck is gone, though.....I owe PRi for a plane ticket.....
PRi was spontaneous the other day.
PRi does not want to be in the city for her birthday.
Though a million-hour drive to Chicago to see Jo and Eric was supposed to be our next "spontaneous" road trip, PRi has decided that one weekend would not be enough to drive there and back.
Chicago is still our next
road trip. Spontaneously, though...we are flying to Vegas.
Oh, man am I ever gonna have to save my money. I can't buy a car...or a house....but I can go to Las Vegas for three days. Going to Disneyland did not cost me one dime out of my pocket....funds were provided by Ralph dollars and the tax man (booo bad tax man!). This time, it is all me, and we'll see how hard I will have to work over the next few months to afford this trip. And a house. Maybe a car...though my car now has a new battery, so it will hang on for a little while longer.
All day today....through the yelling....through the stress...through the urges to cry...through comforting other coworkers who broke down in tears....
I told myself one thing.
127 more sleeps.
Turkey, perogies....and karaoke??
It's Monday, and the feast is over. I feel like I have gained about 20 lbs, but it was worth it. My family doesn't celebrate Thanksgiving on the actual day. Monday is reserved for travelling. Monday is a day for fridge raiding. Monday is a day for card-playing. Monday is a day for....karaoke?
Good times and good food was had, and we are all stuffed. Stuffed with fluff. My house doesn't usually accomodate 12 people, but we fit alright. Of course there were the endless trips to the grocery store (just 5 yesterday) and a movie or two. This weeks' special was The Little Mermaid (!!) and The Departed.
PRi was over for some good eating. I think she thinks my family is nuts...hahahaha Oops! She also brought over Karaoke Revolution Party for Devin's gamecube. Here I Go Again On My Own. And we taught her how to play cards....well, at least grandpa's game of cards..... PRi is on fire. Ow!
PRi apparently feels like a natural woman.....
I won't ask.
Under all that fluff
I gave Stewie a bath today. Wow. I wish I had taken a picture. He looked miserable and wet and... thin. Turns out my rabbit isn't all that fat, he's just really fluffy. He looked so miserable, I couldn't help but laugh. Really hard. He also didn't appreciate the fact that I was laughing at him. His feelings get hurt you know, he's very perceptive and like any other male, has pride issues. I remember when I found him dangling from his foot from the top of his cage, he sulked for days after. It didn't really hurt him, I don't think. He was taking drugs for the pain, but it was his pride that was hurt. He got caught being stupid and that's the worst thing to happen to him. Today's bath wasn't too bad. He got his nails clipped, his fur brushed and cleaned. It's been 2 hours, but he's still cleaning himself. He needs to be perfect. Tsk. what a male.
I'm not sure what happened, but I got a throat infection. I'm trying to decide who to blame it on. In fact, if you look back to some previous posts, I've written that I was sick. Turns out that I got the entire dealership sick. There's about 3 sales staff who have the flu, and that's only in new vehicle sales. I got 1 guy in the truck centre sick, 2 used car guys, 1 receptionist... I let JC take credit for the service staff... But the funnier bit of it is that I lost my voice. Not good when you get paid to talk to people. Oh well, that means more people for me to infect. After I get better, I'm going to get a flu shot.
Family are the ties that bind
Why do I put myself in these situations??? I know I am so tired, and I know that I need money.....
But 8 nights in a row??????
Silly Morgo. Ah, well. I have 2 hours and 58 minutes left until I can go home and go to bed. Zzzz.... It has been, what.....5 days since my last post.....and I am still on the same stretch of nights. Boo. This is why I haven't existed forever and ever. It's my fault really, and I am not trying to complain or anything. Lord knows that I can complain with the best of them.....I mean, if you are in a bad mood, just talk to me for 5 minutes and you'll feel better about yourself. *sigh* Well, at least I have my health. And at least I have my friends and family.
Speaking of family.....
Grandma and grandpa came in last night from good ol' Winterpeg for Thanksgiving. I'm so excited!!! I haven't seen my grandparents since I graduated last year....so long ago! They are doing great. Andy, Michelle, and Aaron are coming up today too...so I will have a houseful of family. Oh, and PRi, cuz she pretty much is family too. I love when I can't park in front of my own house, can't sleep in my own bed, have to wait 3 hours for a bathroom, can't find anywhere to sit, and run out of groceries every day. Really, I do! It means that my family is together again....sometimes fighting...sometimes laughing...sometimes frustrated at card-playing...but always happy to see each other. :)
So yeah and stuff. That is what is new with me. There are a bunch of positions available right now at work...so I am going to apply to them all. I don't care if they are only 6 months long...or if they are days/evenings (I hate evenings.....go figure...???)...but I will still be applying. My position ends October 15, and I will be back in the world of trying to pick up shifts to pay my bills. Let alone find a place. I told my grandma about my mortgage approval. She laughed. I did not. Well, I guess I did later on, but it is frustrating nonetheless.
2 hours and 42 minutes. Go Oilers!
