I'm old
I feel like I'm getting old, and I don't like it. Well, who doesn't really, unless you are 14 and wishing you were legal or at least older so people would realize that indeed you are right about everything. You're really as old as you feel, age is just a number, add you're own cliche here and so on. But seriously.
I went to K-Days today, or Capital Ex or whatever you choose to call it. First time in I think 3 years since I've been. I had my plan of what I wanted to do, and I was not going to spend all day there either. I haven't been there for a whole day in a very long time, and that was when a whole bunch of us would get together and shop and ride all the rides a million times until the fireworks. Then we'd ride some more because everyone would go home after the fireworks were done. Yeah, those were the days. And it didn't really cost so much either, unless you wanted to buy stuff in the Agricom and lug it around with you for the rest of the day. The cold Root beer stand had cold Root beer for cheap. The lemonade stand had cheap but tasty lemonade. You could share one order of curly fries or one of the BBQ sandwiches between 3 people. You could play Skeeball for a buck. Life was good.
But today was a much different story. Maybe it's because I'm out of touch with things now that I'm more grown up. It's very possible. I haven't been there in a while, perhaps things are different now. The target crowd even seems different. At least that was my perspective, and it may be entirely incorrect. But maybe it's because I'm getting old.
I had been there barely more than 5 hours today and it cost me nearly $200. And all I have to show for it is a stamp on my hand, a validated LRT ticket, and a bag of mini-donuts. Devin and I were at least able to get on 5 rides for a low low price of $50 as we shared ride tickets between us. It would have been twice the price to "ride all day". And the 5 rides should have been 4 but one of the operators forgot to scan our ticket pass. Woot!
Mind you, a large chunk of money was spent on grown-up things like real food, Dream Home lottery tickets, parking at HUB, and Groceries for Life.
So I come home with a rather emptier wallet and thankful that I don't have a sunburn (yay SPF 50!) My hair is dishevelled, my hands are sticky and my feet are tired and swollen. My dusty clothes that were picked for comfort in this weather and not for style were quickly replaced by pyjamas. I really did have a great time today, despite feeling like I'm falling apart.
But now I remember why I haven't gone for the last few years.
conflict
I can start explaining my excuses away by telling you that it's too hot. I'm lazy. I'm tired. I have to work nights tonight. All of the above. But what good will it do? I shouldn't complain anyways. I totally love this weather.....I just hate trying to sleep through it.
So instead, I'm going to eat my fudgesicle.
I've been conflicted lately, on a lot of things. Some I have mentioned, and others I probably won't say, but be bothered with them anyways. Maybe I'll feel better once I've been able to express them openly, but for now..........I guess what I'm really trying to say is that I don't know what it is I want to say. You'd think it would be easier to write it down. Or I could take a page out of PRi's book, and really vent my opinion.
But somehow, I can't. Not yet. Instead I'm writing this ridiculously cryptic entry that is going nowhere. All I ask in return is that you will be there when I need you to hear what I have to say.
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I suppose it is the warm weather that is making my brain slow. I was going to post an update earlier, and I can't seem to find the right words to say. I don't think the last of my Bacardi breezers have anything to do with it either hahaha. But I find myself wanting to sit down and finally post something here. I did such a thing after getting home from work, but couldn't think of anything to write. The backspace button had a lot of action going on hahaha, but nothing cohesive was happening.
So here I am four hours later and rambling away about my non-post. I'm just finding myself pretty lazy today. It wasn't an unbelievably busy day at work (a rarity nowadays), and I got a decent amount of sleep last night despite the heat and being woken up by cats.
I don't even know why I am doing an update anyways, as most of you who read this know my story, but I suppose that putting my thoughts and feelings into coherent sentences and actually keeping up this blog is helping my sanity sometimes!
Anywho...
Jo and Eric have been in town, and so part of the reason for my blog absence has been due to getting together, catching up, eating Thai/gourmet food/BBQs, hanging out, going for drinks, bowling/pool, and other random activities. I'm going to be sad when they leave this weekend.
Peter's dinner on Sunday was spectacular. The food was amazing. The company was fantastic. The times were good. We all learned our lessons from last year, and thus Peter's trees will survive.....though I'm not so sure about his dishwasher ;) A round of applause and thanks to Peter and Janita for hosting a great party!
I'm getting to know two lovely cats, though it took them a while to warm up to me. I wasn't mommy you see, so I was only good for getting food and water. But when I visited them on Monday, they finally gave in and talked to me. I guess they were pretty lonely. Poor kitties! I've been trying to keep them company, and now I am also good for playing with the blue ribbon.
I don't know what else to say. Devin's taking summer school this year....CALM 20 is so much better in a two-week period than a 5 month period. Should be interesting. I don't remember what I learned in CALM 20.....except that we watched "Rudy" and talked about grocery shopping.
So yeah and stuff. I'm all out of ideas. Perhaps when the weather is not so pleasant and the effects of the rum wear off I'll have more to say. Unusual for me, I guess....I talk a whole lot more when I drink rum.......
And now the rum is gone!
